Yesterday morning, I had a strong impression during the church service.
Our pastor was saying how much God was wanting us to go deeper with Him, and invited us to pray along those lines.
In that moment, I saw a picture of myself clinging onto a buoy out at sea.
The waves were high and a storm was stirring things up.
I was afraid, and clinging out of fear onto the buoy for dear life.
And God whispered to me, “You can let go now. I won’t let you drown. The waves will not overcome you as you follow me into the deep. You will be safe in My arms.”
As a child, I had a fear of falling, having fallen out of a moving car as a preschooler.
My fear of heights was rooted in my fear of falling.
It has become obvious to me that my fear of falling is not fully uprooted from the image I saw yesterday.
I am still afraid.
I still doubt that God is going to catch me, carry me, keep me safe in some part deep within me.
And God loves me too much, so much, He doesn’t want that fear directing me any longer.
So He highlighted it for me in such a way that I could see it, and His living care, all at once.
He wants me all in, not keeping parts of myself tethered to fear.
Storms, major and minor, have come and gone in my life, and will continue to do so all the seasons of my life.
God has been there, rock solid, for each and every one.
I can depend on Him to hold me.
To keep me safe.
To continue to love me no matter what.
He needs me to let go and trust:
He is more than enough to keep my head above water.
He will guide me where He leads His river to take me.
His love for me is so great it will squelch my fear if I let Him have it,and replace it with a greater sense of His presence.
His love is my anchor.
The waves may be high; His love is higher still.
The water will be deeper than I can reach at times; His reach is deeper than I can imagine.
The storms may be darker than a moonless midnight sky; His Presence is bright enough to light my way.
I need to let go of the buoy of fear, and leap into His waiting arms.
Do you need to join me?
Let’s make the leap from fear together.