The last few nights left me grasping for my sanity.
My health took a turn for the worse, which caused me to need to be up between every half hour to every hour and a half at the most around the clock.
I don’t do too well with two things. Lack of sleep two nights in a row, and blood.
Combining the two had me dazed and wondering why this again.
And then I remembered what God told Paul when he asked God to take away the thorn in his flesh. If I were Paul, I would be asking the same thing. Because I have for the past 30 years. Asked God to take these conditions from me.
Here is the scenario between Paul & God from 2 Corinthians 2:7-10 in the Message translation:
Because of the extravagance of those revelations, and so I wouldn’t get a big head, I was given the gift of a handicap to keep me in constant touch with my limitations. Satan’s angel did his best to get me down; what he in fact did was push me to my knees. No danger then of walking around high and mighty! At first I didn’t think of it as a gift, and begged God to remove it. Three times I did that, and then he told me,
My grace is enough; it’s all you need.
My strength comes into its own in your weakness.
Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ’s strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become.
Oh, did i ever get the message! (pardon the pun)
I may have this condition right now because God is able to strengthen me within in a way I would not otherwise be willing to depend on Him for, unless I had this thorn.
For He has kept me going, beyond what I am physically, emotionally, spiritually & mentally able to do on my own. There have been days I could hardly walk, yet I have been able to keep working despite the discomfort and pain.
So I thank Him for this gift today.
I believe He does want to heal me.
Until He does, I thank Him for the strength and the grace He gives me new every morning.
The gift of His presence, reminding me I never walk alone.
He is more than enough for whatever I face.
I am living proof of His kindness.
His love for me helps me move forward, knowing He is for me when I feel like my body is against me.
May Holy Spirit continue to prompt me to get His messages sooner versus later!