The limbo of waiting and being in between.
There is nothing quite like it.
The pain that comes from holding yourself back.
The tension of the not quite yet.
So close you can almost taste it.
In my life, it usually is a time of self examination.
What do I need to purge from myself to be ready for what is coming?
Am I too impatient? Controlling? Indecisive?
Do I have a bad habit or behavior I need to pull out by the root to make way for a healthier new one?
Is there something that I have left unfinished that I need to complete?
Is God wanting me to trust more, leave fear and worry behind and amp up my faith factor?
Not only time itself will tell.
Time spent with God is the difference maker.
Worshipping who He is.
Pouring out our thanks in praise for what He has done in our lives.
Listening and looking for His promptings and whispers of direction.
Soaking in His presence.
Filling up with His truth in the Word.
Somehow interwoven together with all those actions above, is waiting.
The waiting is that limbo in between what is now, and what is to come.
When we actively wait, expecting God will move and answer us, we are changed in the process.
Saving up or working for something we long for has such a sweet satisfaction attached to finally achieving it, like buying a car or paying off your mortgage.
God works the same way.
We are somehow stronger in depending and waiting on God, instead of jumping right in.
You see, we only see time as linear, moving forward minute by minute.
God sees all of time, history from before the first of creation right until the forever of the new heaven. Forever, each ever has been, is and will be moment of existence.
If He thinks we need to wait, there is a good reason for it.
I have decided to trust in the holding pattern I am in, even though I want what I want now.
That is the worldly kingdom talking.
And I want that bad attitude out of me.
Which is likely why God has me waiting….
So may I hear Your plans for me, God, and make the changes I need to to join where and when and what You have for me.